It's been a hard month for us. Things just keep going wrong. Things keep changing. We are still in the grieving process too. It will never go away. Chuck's job keeps screwing him over. The electric bill is still high. I need to get to the doctor for my 6 month check up but can't afford it. It's tough.
Even MJ is changing. She is starting to play be herself a little more in the afternoon. The good thing is she is starting to use real words more. But I still have to be in the same room. Or she'll come looking for me and pull me back. Plus she gives up her nap twice weekly. And we've been binkie free for almost 3 weeks now. It's amazing and freeing, but finding new ways to calm her down when she is having a tantrum is a little trying. We get thru.
And now it's almost October. There are already a million things on my schedule. 3 birthdays. Our Anniversary. Halloween. A couple get togethers. And trying again to teach MJ potty training. She didn't get it this month. It's still confusing, you can see it in her eyes. She's only 2. But I don't want her to feel pressured either. Because she baulks. And then there is no way it's happening again for a few weeks.
I'm just hoping that October goes better. I can only hope. I want one year that goes right. I'm tired of crying all the time. I'm tired of hurting. And I'm tired of struggling. I just want us all to be happy and healthy.
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